Well Its another day and im still alive (for now anyways). Set up a my space account [link]

I dont have much on there yet...dont have much on anything yet.

Nothing interesting has really happend to me lately just been living day to day. Havnt been working on art a lot lately probably because I usually work on art in front of the computer. I need a scanner to I have some cool picks I want to upload but cant.

Well I suppose Ill go back to doing stuff.

Ive finnally managed to get the internet agian and im happy to be back. Im going to be doing a lot of cleaning on my page and probably be moving a lot to the scraps. But I hope to be uploading again soon. Im going to be setting up a myspace account for all those people that want to keep track of what im doing...What am i doing...Oh well ill leave a better journal later.

*off to go leave messeges on friends pages

At my moms for Christmas so I decided to come on and clean it up a little bit. I wish i could look at all the pictures but it would take forever to look at them all. When I move to the cities im hoping to get the internet agian im going to set up a myspace account and all that jazz. I miss the internet people lol. Well Im going to go play some guitarr whatnot. peace

Im Feeling a lot better than i was my last journal entry. I dont have acsess to the internet any more...I moved back to fargo. Im going to try to get on more at the library. Ill be posting more soon.

I wake up everyday not knowing why. I wake up everyday and at night i go to sleep. I never really dreamed much and much of my dreams are nightmares. Haunted by myself and creatures in my head. Everyday I wake up lost as the day before trapped between reality and dream. Theology...never much got into that, but to look up and "know" somebody/something is watching over you would be comforting. I wake up everyday in in my body, the same body that ive always had, though it has changed. The point, I dont know. Everyday a challenge to be faced, solved, worked out. I screamed silently for someone to help. I screamed so loud and was shuned. Left with the rot of my childhood and my mistakes I embraced. The only one that ever made me feel real, is to far away. The silence I embrace will tear through me and devour my soul as i watch everyone fall apart and rot in themselves.